What is this life I’m living?

What is this life I’m living? This life is yours and can be all of yours. If you choose to let go of the stories that other people hold for you, let go of your own stories as well for they may not serve you in this moment in this time, they were there for a reason and have had their place and if today is not the time for them, then let them go and that is okay.

It does not make you less or more of who you were yesterday, and it does not make you less or more who you will be. Who you are as right here; in this moment, in this very time to do the thing that you want to do, it does not have to be overthought or overwhelmed with anxiety, it does not have to mean more than what it means in this very moment right now. The consequences of your actions can be boundless, but at the same time, they do not hold the responsibility or the weight that you carry. Within them sometimes, the thing that you hold dear, is the thing that you will let go of and that is the joy that comes from the release, the release is where you have had resistance, and the release comes from fear of losing.

The fear of loss is not one that you experience when you release the joy, the release of anything does not mean losing it, it means, what it means it does not have to have a definition and not everything in your life has to be defined, but it can be if you want and it can be if that soothes your soul in this very moment.

Live within your truth and not the truth of others for this is where you can directly feel the impact of your actions. If you act out of love and have no worry, then have no regrets. Things that you have done, and the decisions that you have made have led you to where you are today and that does not mean that they are right or wrong, or regrettable or re-doable. Where you are where you are today.

Try to let go of the past as if it has come to carry you to this place you are today, has carried you and sustained you and kept you afloat. It has sometimes felt like you’re drowning, and sometimes felt like you’re bobbing up and down or staying in one place and doing nothing but guess what doing nothing is okay too.

You don’t need to hold on to the fear or the thought that you must be doing more for what you’re doing right now is what you are meant to be doing. Follow your heart and follow the love for that is the core of the decisions that you make and if you make it so in if you live by your truth, there can be no harm.

Other people may be harmed and that is okay and that can be part of their story and that can be part of yours too. Act out of love and that is what’s or in that as what was…

Live simply, within my truth.

What does it mean to live simply within my truth?

Breathe and live slowly,
for what you have become, is what the world needs right now.

But you will not be able to do it by living other people’s stories,
or living for other people’s stories and experiences.

You can give yourself without giving up on yourself or without giving up a part of yourself that is within your truth.
You can be whole and complete and give yourself and not lose any of it.

If you live within your truth, live simply within the actions that are within your reach.
And do not be afraid that there is far beyond your reach and far beyond the things that you are doing right now, in this very moment;
They will come to you at the right time.

When you have opened yourself up to them, open up yourself to your own truth first, for it is by letting go of the expectations of others that you can fulfill them more completely and more intentionally with more meaning, than if you were to do it the other way around.

Live within your truths so that others may live within theirs.
And that is the thing that you can give to the world.

Do not think that you have to give up a part of yourself to be what others need you to be in this very moment. You are right here, right now, who you are and who you are is enough.

And let go of the responsibility that weighs you down for responsibly is not the consequence of your action, responsibilities, not yours is meant to be carried by you alone.

Past, Present and Future Stories

There’s no way to tell how the past and the future have affected us. And there is no way to tell how the present will affect the past or the future. At all what you know, is what you know right now. And what you think you know about the past are merely stories that you have formed in your head and maybe they’re right and maybe they’re wrong and maybe they’re there to serve. And if they are, then keep them and let them guide you and if they are not, how do you know? Act from a place of love, receive it from a place of love.

The thing that you do not communicate, is the thing that will hold you back. The thing that you hold so dear to you – the love and friendship and relationships. Those are affected first and foremost by love. And if you act out of love, then you will have it; the thing that you want, the thing that brings you joy.

What is so good about the life that you live? What is so good about the life that you have? It is yours and yours alone. And the reality that you live today can change from minute-to-minute, moment to moment, from day to day, can change and following flow with your heart. And you can follow in flow with the change. And you will see that changes in your environment are far beyond the control that you think you have.

You are part of this universe and connected through cellular energy and vibrations that hold you together and apart. And in this world, you are not alone and you are your own sentient being.
Listen to the words; you are not alone, but you are your own person. You do not have to live for the stories of others and you don’t have to live with the stories of yourself. The ones that you have given yourself based on experience and past and pains and what you think you should do and what you think you should know and learn and be. Who you are; is who you are right now in this moment. Nothing needs to change and everything will change at the same time. And you can just be it doesn’t mean that you lose control it may mean that you do not have the control that you think you do.

Live simply within your truth and do not overcomplicate the situation that you have right in front of you, right around you, all around you. It is all love and movement. And set-in motion the thoughts, that you have whether they are negative or positive as a reflection of your mindset and of your perception. There is no good or bad. There doesn’t have to be a right or wrong. You are you and you are here.

And whatever connection you may feel or lose or be with or be without those are the ones that you need or not need or find yourself to be surrounded with, the ones you love.

And the ones who love you and do not push that away because you do not think you deserve it. Know that you deserve it and know that you have it and know that deserving is a validation or proof of worth and that is not a thing that holds this place in your heart.
Worth is external, it is perception. Self-worth is also perception. you are who you are in this very moment. You do not need to change the person you are; you do not need to change the things that you do.

Do you want to? Then do it, but you do not have to do anything. You always have the choice and you have the power to decide and you have the power to be here in this very moment.
Knowing what you know and doing what you’ve done and walking, walking, walking. You have it in your heart to be who you are, and you have in your heart to accept everyone as they are.

Why am I feeling stuck?

Look past the feeling, and beyond the thing that you want,
and the thing you think that you should be feeling.

Do not, at this moment, go to the place where you want to be, necessarily.
The place you think you want to be is suffering,
but suffering does not prove the person that you are;
It does not validate, or give you worth .

You can prove who you are, in this very moment,
suffering or not, but you do not need to prove.
You do not need to have the responsibility of showing who you are,
you know who you are, they know you who you are, and they will see you.

And if they don’t, that’s okay, you can see you as you are in this very moment.
And that is the imprint that you can leave in this world for them.
For you, it does not matter so much.
Because here is the next moment and the next and the next,
and the now, and the now, and the now.

And focus on the now…
and it does not mean you have to let go of your positive,
it does not mean that you have to erase your mistakes.
Those things are there and they have happened
and they have contributed to who you are.
You don’t have to erase the moments that have happened, to be in the now.
You simply can let them be where they are and let them be
and let them have the impact that they’ve had.
And they have all led you to where you are today.
And you do not have to forget them, you do not have to forgive them and you do not have to move past them.
Moving past them does not mean letting go of the past.
You can leave it there, where you are.
And you can be here in this moment without looking back
and without the attachment of the stories that you have to them.

The mistakes that you’ve made, do not have to be considered mistakes at all.
They were actions and they’re just like your actions are today,
in this moment, for this very moment in time.

You do not have the responsibility of carrying this into the future.
And you do not have to worry about what or how, or who this will affect in the future.
It does not make you selfish, it makes you capable of living in this moment.

And in this moment, it can flow for you and for others in the same direction or in opposite directions, it does not matter.
The story that they have does not have to be yours.
The story that they have can be theirs and you can live in parallel or you can live in the same world, even.
It doesn’t mean you have to share the experience in the same way.
You can see things as they do, but it is not your truth.

Live within your truth.
And you can share that moment as it is, and not have to fight about the way it’s interpreted because the way they see it, is the way they see it, and the way they see it is based on their stories and their past and their experience and you can do the same and if that story serves you then go ahead and have it.
But if that story no longer serves you or if it’s not yours to keep or if it’s not your truth, let it go.

Let it go and breathe into this very moment where you are today.
All of your actions and your decisions are made in the moment, for that moment. And you are now in this moment for this moment.
You do not have suffering; you do not have to prove that you can overcome suffering by creating it.
You can live this perfectly imperfect life right here as it is.

And within your truth, you will discover your own heart and purpose;
and your purpose does not have to go beyond your world because the way you ripple will be in your own terms.
And when it’s done in your own terms from your heart, from the truth, from the love within, that is the thing that will matter and that is the thing that will ripple across and affect other people and change them and love them but as much as you want to affect them or you as much as you feel like you have the responsibility to make their world okay is not yours.

Everyone has their own truth and everyone has their own lives and their own paths and their own actions, including your children.
You have only to love; to love and to know the intention of love is the thing that will carry through. Do not judge it based on your actions in this very moment.

You can live in the moment enjoying, enjoying, enjoy
and when you don’t, and if you slip in, if you find yourself in a place that you didn’t want to be, you can get out you have the choice, you always have a choice.
And they will see that too. And then by allowing them to make their own mistakes and have their own feelings and adjust accordingly…
Within their truth, you’re allowing them to do the same.

And your wish for them does not necessarily have to reflect the wish they have for themselves and that’s okay. You do not know how they’re going to be, they’re not you. And they do not have to live based on your experience, it is their own life now. It is the way they interpret it. It is within their truth. You do not have to overthink the way you approach things.

Live within your truth and follow your intuition. It is there to guide you and it is there. If you listen, you will know that you’ve heard it all along, and that knowing will guide you much more securely, than anything that anybody else has ever said. Because what they’ve said is not wrong, but it is based on their truth, and their experience. It is not yours. You can be here and you can do the same and then you can share the experience, when you both live within your truth. The beauty is to be had, when it can be shared, within your own truth.

Q: What is the difference between joy and happiness?
A: Joy is the full and complete release of your feelings.

Q: Am I happy?
A: Yes.

Q: Am I joyful?
A: Yes and no.

Q: How yes?
A: There is joy within you.

Q: How no?
A: Release.  

Q: What do I release?
A: Joy. Your mind’s stories.  Allow joy.

Q: What stories do I have?
A: That your happiness is at the expense of others.

Q: Why do I have this story?
A: Your past.  Your perception of the past.

Q: How can I undo the past?
A: Allow the past to have happened.  The meaning you assigned then is not true today.  Keep the past, release the stories.

Q: I have hurt others in the past.  
A: It’s ok.

Q: I have been hurt.
A: It’s ok.

Q: What is in the past that I can’t let go?
A: Everything.

Q: What is in the future?
A: Even more.

Q: What’s in the present?
A: Only joy.
Find joy in all the things.  It is the path to your purpose, in being.
The purpose of your being is written in the stars.  See them shine as you would, for they exist even when your eyes are closed.  Their light is always with you.
Your joy is yours alone, independent in its being.  It may touch upon others, who carry their own joy.  Your joy does not take away from others.  It does not diminish or elevate another’s suffering.  Carry your joy within your heart and it shall appear outside of you.  Let the joy bring forth your spirit. The truest form of love exists without boundaries.  Fully release the joy, and see it envelope your soul.

Q: Am I doing what brings me joy?
A: Yes.

Q: At what expense? 
A: You need not sacrifice anything, in joy.  Joy is love.

Q: Am I stopping myself from success?
A: Only in the success that others have defined for you.

Q: Why?
A: To validate their stories. 

Q: Why do I do this, if I know my own heart?
A: Comfort in security.

Q: Should I worry about money right now?
A: Worry will not change the future.  It’s a distraction from your present joy. Money is a thing. It is not your joy.  It will come.  It will show up as you need it.

Q: Is that being irresponsible
A: That is another’s opinion that you may let go.   Live from a place of gentle loving kindness.  The rest will come.

Q: How can I know I’m doing the right thing?
A: You already know.

Q: Sometimes I feel insecure about it.
A: External.

Q: My insecurity is external?
A: Your doubts lie within other people’s perception of you.  Your knowing lies within.  The knowing, the love, the being.  Those are yours to have and to hold.  Your mind seeks a problem to solve, where there is none.